johnson and i

after a sluggish and long monday, i made the determination to start afresh - be active and contributive to my environment/other people. i had a great day at camp - conducted improv games, a brief mask workshop and accompanied my 'queens' (the gals in my group named themselves 'the flying drama queens') in their performance 'mama, i'm a big girl'. ;)

what was it that i wanted to say... oh yeah, i remember in 'tuesdays with morrie' (the great book i had but lent it to my friend and now it's 'gone'), there's a chapter talking about dealing with relationship. to be precise, how to get over a relationship. morrie said something like...it's okay to grief and plunge into that depression state for a time period, to really FEEL the painful emotions of loss, AND THEN stand up and move on. yeah, to really feel the down moment, and then toss it aside (with the attitute 'it's so over, babe') and start anew. ;)

i'm taking morrie's great advice.

hhmmm...i'd say that i was kind of rejecting the confrontation/reality. of course, her actions seemed to justify the 'relationship' and i was ermmm...reluctant to let go. what was i doing? i wasn't being fair. i was kind of selfish (argh!). i'm really kicking myself over what's happened. she's right, i was thinking with my 'brain' ;P

i'm healing... last night, while watching the commercial of johnson & johnson's baby lotion (duh, not that i intended to JUST watch the commercials :P) i had the vision of her holding her baby, looking so beautiful, motherly, fortunate and happy. it warmed my heart, and i told myself, yes...let the image/vision be a reality. i'll be there to hold her and congratulate her and share her joy and happiness.

psssst, i'm using that johnson baby lotion now and i tell you - i've never feel so soft and sexy at the same time my entire life ;P well, i've never had the habit of applying lotion after shower back in malaysia, but now that i'm in a drier environment, i HAVE TO ;P

you go, johnson!