10 years
I think it was 10 years ago. I'd finally summoned enough courage to perform - solo singing, in front of the whole school. Annual Talentime. I think it's around this time too, you know...end of the year kinda. It was MY FIRST TIME singing solo (how scary was that, my voice was 'lost'. oppsss...don't have to tell the embarrasing moment here) in front of my juniors and seniors. My song was Heaven Knows by Rick Price.
Heaven Knows
She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up
Till I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know
And though she's so far away
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holdin' on
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breakin my heart
Don't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in time
I'll know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave
I'm shakin' inside
Why does it hurt me so
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
Heaven knows
Heaven knows...
All of the sudden these words were coming to me while I was in the shower. I downloaded the song and I was weeping, singing along. It was 10 years ago, and I was 'already' singing this song. To whom? I'm singing the song (that was so dear to me) now and I'm actually 'living' the song. It's very emotional...
If I'd perform this song again, I'd sing it with my whole being/life. 10 years...I've gain enough performing and stage experiences. Hhmmmm...how about life experiences? Well...sure. But it's never enough.
posted by lotsachi @ 5:53 AM
4 Comments:
so did u win??
yeah, experiences will never be enuf... we'll just have keep living them. only heaven (in our case, gohonzon) knows when it'll be enuf, and then we'll move on!
no, i didn't (in that year's talentime). i was a rookie, and there were better competitors. however, i WON the solo, duet and group singing categories in my final secondary year. ;) woohoo...
right, gohonzon knows :'(
wah... so kagum. for me, i'm too chicken to do solo, tho i like to perform. that's y u can only find me hidden way back there in choirs and band! kekeke... once, my uni choir master asked me to try out one solo part, but i refused! can't do it lar... :Þ
well...there's always the first time. and then u'd gather the courage...bigger audience, bigger stage...bla bla bla...see where i am now? ;P
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